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It’s My Reality

It’s My Reality

September 5, 2012 by Amy, Using Our Words 12 Comments

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The following post is inspired by the gripping (and haunting) memoir January First. It’s written by a father, Michael Shofield, about his family’s struggle to find the right treatment for his daughter Jani, who was diagnosed with schizophrenia at six years old. Join From Left to Write on September 6th as we discuss January First. As a member, I received a copy of the book for inspiration purposes.

It’s not that I don’t love my life. I do. I have three outrageously entertaining, almost entirely sweet kids. I have a fun-loving husband who will dance to make me laugh, and who helps do the dishes. Then there’s the family who doesn’t live here, but lives in my heart and on the phone. I have the kind of friends who feel like family, laugh like crazy, and love me unconditionally (which ain’t easy, I tell you). Yes, every day I count my blessings.

But you know what? There are times I get overwhelmed in this world. The real one. My to do list feels too long, the screaming kids are too loud, the expectations are just too much. And I retreat.

I don’t go far. To look at me, you might even think I’m still here…where you physically see me. But I’m not. I’m in my imaginary world. With my imaginary friends.

Ok, they’re not entirely imaginary. They’re real people. Sort of. They’re real people at their wittiest. They’re real people at their most adorable. They’re real people who simply want me to like them. And I do. And, you know what, they like me right back. They want me to hear them. And I do. And, you know what, they hear me right back.

But here’s the problem with my imaginary world. The more stressed out I get, the deeper I dive in. Instead of addressing the things that need to be done in the real world, I turn to my imaginary friends.

And honestly, there are times, I know my absence from reality is hurting the people I love most.

They try to call me home. To bring me back. To remind me that what I’m seeing isn’t what really matters. “Can you play with me now?” In a minute. Just one more minute. With nobody asking me for anything. Just one more minute.

Don’t get me wrong. We all need a bit of an escape. We all need connections with like-minded people—or even debate with people who think entirely differently. We all want a place to express ourselves. And Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, etc., they all have their place in reality. (And, in my case, in my career.)

But I’m making an effort to be more mindful of the time I spend in my self-created world. Because my real world—the kids, the family, the friends—they’re all I’ve ever asked for. Even if, at times, the demands of a full life feel like more than I can handle.

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Comments

  1. Neena says

    September 5, 2012 at 1:11 pm

    I get exactly what you are saying in more ways than you’ll ever know.

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    • Amy says

      September 5, 2012 at 8:58 pm

      The beauty of these imaginary buddies is that some friendships extend into reality…like ours. Thanks for being such a very real support and friend!

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  2. Taryn says

    September 5, 2012 at 5:18 pm

    Yes! Yes! Yes!

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    • Amy says

      September 5, 2012 at 9:01 pm

      Thank you! This wasn’t easy to put out there and I’m glad you can relate.

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  3. Alicia S says

    September 5, 2012 at 6:47 pm

    I think a lot of us feel the same way. All in moderation I guess 🙂

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    • Amy says

      September 5, 2012 at 9:02 pm

      So true. So true.

      Reply
  4. Rebecca says

    September 5, 2012 at 9:31 pm

    I’m like that with myself and I don’t have kids. This very morning I was like I don’t wanna get out of bed. But you gotta I told myself. Even with a whiny voice in my head I sounded like a kid defying their parent. So I do get how you feel at times.

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  5. Thien-Kim says

    September 5, 2012 at 11:13 pm

    I felt this way today. My toddler napped too early and not long enough. He had a tantrum as we had to leave to pick up his sister from school. He screamed for 45 minutes in the car. All I wanted to do was hide in a bubble bath with a book. I totally get it.

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  6. Jen says

    September 6, 2012 at 7:04 am

    I don’t have imaginary friends but I do imagine an imaginary life then I look at my own and it is a pale comparison. I tend to withdraw inward. I am definitely a social loner, if there is such a thing.

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  7. Pamela Gold says

    September 6, 2012 at 10:38 am

    I often want to run away from life because it is daunting to continue on everyday. But I don’t because I can’t. They need me. My only escape it seems is in books and the occasional bathroom trip without a toddler in tow. My life on the inside contains a mental illness of my own and sometimes it’s really hard to fake it till I make it on the outside. We all need an escape. I wouldn’t let it bother you too much that you have one.

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  8. Lisa - Hannemaniacs says

    September 6, 2012 at 10:40 am

    I have those moments, but they’re when I’m sitting there, very present, but I keep my mouth shut, turn off my ears, and start to drift into nothing. And then I’m startled back to reality by a screaming kid or my husband asking if I’m paying attention. My brain just needs a rest sometimes.

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