Will we be able to get to the audiologist and home in time for lunch and my conference call? Maybe I can run in to return shoes at the mall while we’re over by Stanford. No way. Too ambitious. What will the boys do during Pink’s hearing test? What’s going to happen to Olivia Pope/Fitz/heck, the whole cast, for that matter in the next episode of Scandal? Darn it, I forgot to call the arborist. Again. Did I send the check for Big’s baseball camp yet? No, of course I didn’t. Tomorrow. I’ll get it done tomorrow. Is that one of the kids? I swear I just heard something. I really want to read, but I should really get some sleep. Why is my stomach growling? Maybe I should check my email one last time. No, don’t do it. Really, don’t do it. Doh, I did it.
That. That is the reason I write. Yes, those 30 seconds of thoughts as I lay in bed last night. Because that’s just a snapshot of the way my mind races. All day, every day.
Writing forces me to stop. To think about a single topic, and really, really think about it. What happened? Why did it happen? How did I feel about it? As a woman/mom/daughter/friend? How can I shape that into a story that’s bigger than what happened to me, and why, and how I felt about it?
I’m analytical. I’m sensitive. I’m obsessive. While all of these traits have their not-so-positive qualities, I love that they make me want to — need to — write. When these traits are at their best, they make my words human, insightful, and powerful. When I write, I’m in control of my chaotic world, rather than it controlling me.
That. And I like to make people laugh.
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I love this.
I need to put a little more of the analytical depth you describe into my posts… this was actually very inspiring, in that regard! And the first part – well that was just plain funny, and oh so true. I will think of you laying sleepless with a mommy racing mind tonight, as I lay sleepless in the same state. 🙂
Amy, Using Our Words says
I hope your mommy mind is calm and enjoying some summer fun today! I’m glad you got a laugh out of it. Made my day!
Heidi Calma says
I love how writing is so deconstructive and reconstructive. I love synthesizing and creating and seeing my words come together into something that stands alone and can be powerful and beautiful and meaningful. I love seeing this in others and experiencing that awe for them too! 🙂
Amy, Using Our Words says
Wow, that comment was beautiful. Keep up that writing, girl. You’ve got serious talent! (Which I already knew, of course.)