…kissing my family goodbye and leaving things like school lunches, bedtime drama, and grocery shopping behind.
…flying to Scottsdale, AZ for a conference I’ve wanted to attend for years, Mom 2.0.
…staying at a beautiful resort with glorious views, pools, and restaurants.
…sipping on a fruity cocktail by the spectacular pool.
…rooming with and getting to know writers that I so greatly admire a bit better.
…seeing friends I only get to connect with in real life once a year—if that.
…learning how to grow and improve my writing, my blog, my brand.
…finding myself inspired, energized, and ready for new challenges.
But I’m not. Instead I’m…
…snuggling my more-needy-than-usual boy a bit longer on the couch in the morning.
…finding new ways to make our temporary house feel a little bit more like home.
…watching our new house take shape in the form of a great, big hole in the ground.
…enjoying the beautiful Bay Area weather at the ball field, getting to know some moms I admire a bit better.
…reaching out to a couple of friends who recently received devastating news.
…sipping a latte in Starbucks as I write without much purpose other than to write…which is why I started this blog so long ago.
…finding myself inspired, energized, and ready for new challenges.
Because, as it turns out, my gut was right when I decided to sell my ticket about a month ago. As sorry as I am to be missing the people I wanted to connect with in Arizona, the people here, they need me more right now.
I’m supposed to be right here at home—living and loving this beautiful, messy life.
Bummed that you didn’t make it, Amy, but understand that your needed at home right now.
Mom 2.0 is close to my home so I decided to purchase a ticket at the last minute…my first blogging conference.
Oh Rudri, this is the first thing I’ve seen that’s made me sad that I’m not there. I hope you have a truly wonderful time. Mom 2.0 is supposed to be the most inspired, inspiring conference of them all and you’ll be a perfect fit there. Please let me know how it goes!!
I couldn’t agree more! It’s a constant tug between the two. I’ve had to pass on 3 things this week for similar reasons, happy with my choices, but wishing I be do it all! xo
I like this post, Amy, because I so remember the thousand big and small decisions I had to make about how to spend time when my kids were growing up. It is not easy feeling torn between family and career. Even if your career is not high profile, it can challenge and enchant and pull your heart away from home. Like you, I tried to stay in somewhat flexible posts so I could keep family first. it wasn’t easy and certainly not as financially rewarding as some other posts might have been. Anyway, I’m glad those precious Heinzes get you and your heart lots. We loyal readers love you just the way you are!……..without a conference to make you “better at what you do”. Love to all of you out there, Lolly
Oh, I relate so much to this. To the pull of the things we sometimes want so much and the even greater pull of those that need us. And to the beauty in the surrender to that need. xoxo